I didn’t throw up today and everybody clapped

Everybody lies. Bunch of liars.

The books lie. TheBump.com lies.  “Oh, you’ll feel much better after the first 12 weeks.”  LIES LIES LIES. When I went to my Dr. appointment at 12 weeks the Dr. said, “I’m sure you’ll feel better around 14 or 15 weeks.”  She said that about 12 weeks when I was there the month before.  Here we are at 15 weeks and this whole being pregnant thing is still kicking my butt. It’s pretty exhausting to be nauseated just about every moment of the day for almost 4 months. I feel like it’s never going to end. I’m pretty sure I’m going to be hanging out at this kid’s high school graduation trying not to barf.

If somebody asked me how my day was, I’d say it was OK. I did have to stop multiple times and just breath and try really hard not to lose my previous meal but I was successful all day. At our end of the week meeting at work today someone asked for wins of the week. I said I hadn’t puked all day. The entire office applauded.  No lie.  They were legitimately excited for me.  How sad is that? If I really thought it would be over soon I would be OK with a day being classified as “good” if I was only feeling on the brink of puking all day and fighting heartburn that would fell a trucker. But I’m really nervous that it’s not going to end and I’m going to feel this way until April. I’m not sure I can handle that. I mean, I know I’ll survive it physically but I’m afraid I will lose my sanity completely.

Everyone also says it will be worth it once the baby gets here. They better not be lying about that too. Do you hear that, baby? You better not be a dud. You better be awesome.

Author: TheVirtue

I'm a procrastinator and a busy bee just trying to focus and simplify my life. I hang out with my wonderful husband, dog and cat, knit, sew, bake, garden and overthink everything all while I'm busy growing a person. View all posts by TheVirtue